Or know exactly who I am or where I'm coming from some days.
But I do know, that I'm happy for the progress I've made physically. I was on facebook this evening, and it inspired me to write this post.
On my friend Lisa's page, theres "photos of you and Lisa" and the first two photos are shown back to back.
I just stared. And then clicked back and forth, back and forth. Like a flip book.
The left photos are January 2010, then the right are June 2011. I'm around 70 lbs lighter, in the second photo. At one point I had lost 80 lbs (December), but I did gain some back.
It's strange how much that can change your look, your life, style, personality, perspective. I wish actually I knew someone going through that extreme of a change. I plan to continue to work on all this, but it's really different from someone who wants to lose ten to fifteen lbs.
I still have a ways to go, to feel healthy. But, it's things like this that help me understand how important it is to be grateful for progress.
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So as a recap for the blog so far: I like my boots, industrial letters, and change. That's a start. I forget that sometimes I may not always know what I like- in my heart I've got an idea of who I'd like to be. And healthy is one of those things.
i love how honest your blog is. (i think i'm too afraid to be this honest with the interwebs, ha, so i give you credit where credit is due) i think you are awesome, and i do think it is completely normal to go through this 'who-the-fuck-is-me?' kind of thing that you're going through. it seems that most people ask themselves this question at least a few times throughout their lifetime, but maybe more so when someone is undergoing a lot of different changes from all over the place.. which, of course, you are! you're so busy with work, school, family, friends, responsibilities, etc, that you didn't really have the time to focus on yourself, &now BAM! it's in your face, whether you want to deal with it or not. just roll with it! own it! maybe this will bring about some awesome creative inspiration for you! don't feel embarrassed, because everyone feels this way, especially young people, to some degree.. i think it's just more pronounced in designers &artists, because we're supposed to have things 'figured out.' yea, okay, way easier to figure things out for someone else, rather than for our own selves, am i right??
ReplyDeleteoh shoot, i'm rambling endlessly on YOUR blog, hah ;) bottom line, i think you're fantastic, whether you've figured yourself out or not! &i will try to remember to call you brienne, even though i'm way used to calling you brie, haha!
-n.
Healthy is good. I feel sometimes we need to take it slow with change and sometimes we just need a big shake-up, to really decide and commit to a goal, you know? You're looking healthier and healthier and that's brilliant. :)
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